Late thankfulness...

Ok I am awful at this. I have been so busy, I haven’t been able to sit down and blog. School has been so stressful, I can’t even keep up. And work has been insane because of the holidays. I don’t have a lot of time to write so what I am going to do is recap a bunch of things I am thankful for and call it a wrap for the thankful November!

            I am thankful for our nice car that is reliable, our ghetto apartment ha, my brother-in-law and sister-in-law who are always there to help us, our few friends who are there for us when we need them, my cat who cuddles at the most obnoxious times, and lastly I am thankful for the five short weeks we had with our sweet pea that showed me that more than anything I want to be a mother.

I have so much more to be thankful for but I have to finish my papers and such! Next week is finals and then I will be less overwhelmed after that!

Reminders...

            So today (actually Saturday I just never check my mail) I got a bill for the blood work I had done when I had my miscarriage. I am not going to lie, it stung a lot. It is really upsetting to get bills for costs related to a baby you don’t have. I don’t know how women can do this time after time and not just break down from the heart ache. I have so much respect for women who have gone through this multiple times and over a much longer period of time than me! On a lighter note my husband and I only have to wait about three more weeks before we can start trying again. I am really excited and hoping that it doesn’t take very long to get pregnant again and then hopefully that will be our take home baby J So to continue with the thankfulness:

November 11^th~ I am thankful that my husband and I have all of our necessities. I can’t imagine wondering where my next meal is going to come from. I take so many things for granted on a day to day basis and I wish I would remember to take a second to be thankful for the little things.

November 12^th~ I am so thankful for all of the veterans and also people who are serving this country right now. I honestly do not think there is anyone more selfless than those who would sacrifice their lives to protect people they do not even know. Happy Veterans Day! Hope everyone has a great week!

Random Saturday

So today all I have is my thankfulness and a super yummy not for baking cookie dough recipe (that I found on this blog (warning to anyone off of the TTCAL board she mentions being pregnant)) to share! I know you are super excited for the recipe so I’ll get to it!

November 10^th~ I am thankful for my littlest sister. She is so amazing and has been such a blessing in my life! She is 13 years younger than me but she is still one of my best friends. She is the funniest person ever and is such a joy to be around!

Ok the recipe: p.s. I didn’t put the chocolate chips in because I made this last minute and it was way delicious anyways!

Not For Baking Cookie Dough

3/4 cup brown sugar

1/4 cup butter, softened

1/4 tsp. vanilla

1/4 cup milk

1 cup flour

Pinch salt

1/2 cup chocolate chips

In a medium bowl, mix together the brown sugar and butter until smooth. Stir in vanilla and milk. Mix in the flour, salt, and chocolate chips until well blended. Chill in the refrigerator.

It is so easy and beyond worth it! I kind of wish I never found this because I know I am going to make it all the time now! Hope everyone (as in my, maybe, two readers haha) has a great Sunday!

Seven, Eight, Nine...

I was waiting to post until I had something to write other than just the things I am thankful for but I don't have a lot to write as of now. So here goes my thankfulness:

November 7th~ I am thankful for my older brother. We have certainly had our differences but he is awesome and supportive!

November 8^th~ I am thankful for my littler sister, she is eleven months younger than me and we were always best friends growing up. We have not been as close lately but I always know that I can count on my sister if I ever need anything. And she is the only person I know who will be sincerely happy for you and never jealous. I wish that I could be a lot more like my sister sometimes!

November 9^th~ I am thankful for my younger brother. He is the nicest person ever and he is so loving. He is eleven years younger than me and it has been so amazing watching him grow up and become the amazing little man he is today!

One Day at a Time

Today had been a rough day for me. AF finally showed her face on Sunday. I was excited because that means I am closer to being able to start TTC again. But I called my doctor’s office today because I needed some clarification on how many cycles I needed to wait until I could start TTC again. I was told by one doctor to wait one cycle and another doctor to wait two. I called today and got sad news that I need to wait another cycle, which means I won't be able to start TTC again until December. I am so inpatient and this was just not at all what I wanted to hear. I know I am probably being a little whiny here, but I am just super bummed today.

To add the topping on top of the, great day, cake I log onto Facebook and see yet another pregnancy announcement! Then I have Yahoo as my home page and there are two celebrity pregnancy announcements. SERIOUSLY?! Where do the fertile myrtles come from?! Sometimes it feels like the universe is throwing this in my face. Which I know is absolutely ridiculous, but it still feels this way.

I have been trying to be more positive but it can be so hard. I just feel so ready to be a mom. And my husband and I have so much love to give to a child. I guess I need to work on my ability to be patient. But my husband and I have never ever been good with patience, when we set out sight on something we pretty much just want it right then. So I think that God is really just testing us and trying to teach us to be more patient. But I’d say that nine months (probably more but I am only counting April through December that I know we will have been trying) plus the nine months of carrying that little baby around is more than enough waiting!

 

I actually wrote this yesterday but I was really sad and didn’t feel up to finishing the post. But to continue with my 30 days of thankful:

Day five~ I am thankful that I am able to go to college. It can be so stressful sometimes, and I often forget that it is a blessing and privilege to be able to go to college.

Day six~ I am thankful for my sweet dog. We adopted him from a shelter when he was 7 weeks old and loved him dearly since. He is so sweet and always snuggles up to me, which can make any day better!

Our puppy the day we brought him home :)

 

This is him now, well a couple of months ago :)

 

Day Four

Thankful November~ Today I am thankful for my boss. She is so fantastic. She is really supportive and has helped me develop so much at work! She pushed me to make my job my career and I am so thankful for that! She is moving in a couple of months and I am beyond sad!

Today is one month since my miscarriage. Where as last week I was really feeling better I am not sure how I feel this week. I feel more normal everyday but I just feel really blah right now. I've even been angry these last couple of days, which I hate. I am so sad that I am heading into the holidays without my baby. DH and I were going to tell everyone on thanksgiving, and now I feel like thanksgiving will be a reminder to me. And I was so excited that I would be showing around Christmas! DH and I were going to buy gifts for our sweet pea instead of for each other. Sorry for the sad post today, but that is where I am at right now.

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Thankful November...

A fun idea I saw on another girl's blog (I never Said it Would Be Easy) off of The Bump was to post something you are thankful for everyday in November. I thought this was a fun idea and would make me happy for all of the things I do have, and worry less about the things I do not have, yet. So I will be playing catch up today and will be updating, hopefully, each day!

November 1st~ I am thankful for my husband. He is so supportive, funny, hardworking, and loving. I seriously don't know what I would do without him! He is the perfect complement to me. I could go on and on about how amazing he is, but I will assume that you get the point J

November 2~ I am thankful for my parents. They are such hard workers, great parents, and have been so supportive of everything I have ever done. They have also been married for 29 years and have set a great example for myself and my siblings.

November 3~ I am thankful for my job. I love my job and I work with some really awesome people. Also finding a job that allows you to work full time around a school schedule is unusual!

Check back tomorrow for some more thankfulness J

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