The Walking Dead

I love the show The Walking Dead. It took some convincing from my wonderful husband to finally watch it (this was me “Zombies are soooo stooopid, why is everyone obsessed with all of that lame zombie stuff?”) Then I watched ONE episode and I haven’t stopped since. Wonderful zombie shows aside though, I think I am becoming a zombie. Last week was dead week and then this week is finals. I have four finals (that I should be studying for right now!) and then I have one glorious week off from both work and school. Can anyone blame me for being exhausted? I am pregnant, working full time, and going to school full time…Every time I say that I realize that I have lost my mind! What in the world was I thinking getting pregnant before finishing school? And then I look at my ultrasound picture with my sweet little baby in there who was bouncing away and then I remember why I did this! But I am probably still crazy! So wish me luck that I can make it through this week with my mind still intact!

I'm Alive and Baby and I are Both Well!

I went on hiatus after getting my positive pregnancy test. I've just been too scared to talk about it, as though I might jinx it. But on Wednesday we had an ultrasound and everything was perfect. We saw the heartbeat flickering away and baby was wiggling around like crazy! I feel pretty confident that this is going to be our take home rainbow baby. I am ten weeks, I'll be elven weeks on Sunday. And I will start doing much better about updating! And here is a pic of our little prune (that's how big it is this week!)

This is Real and Not to Good to Be True!

I got my beta results back and they were good! They more than doubled in a little less than 48 hours! I feel so blessed. This is so amazing to me. We have our first ultrasound on Valentine’s Day! I will be praying that everything keeps going this great! I am seriously freaking out right now because this is all going so amazing!

Too Good To Be True?

I called my doctor’s office today, praying that I could get in and have my betas done. The nurse asked if I had gotten a positive home pregnancy test yet to which I told her “yes”. But in my head I was all “Only three of them, no big deal”. And she asked when I was supposed to get my period and I told her “today” but in my head I was saying “Yeah that ugly biotch did not show up this morning”. And so she said I could come in today and get my betas done and then do the repeat test on Wednesday. So at three today I got a voicemail and my first beta was at 587, which is way higher than I thought it would be! So while it is high, I really have to wait until Wednesday to get my results. I need this number to double so I will be hoping and praying that we get good news on Wednesday! Please keep your fingers crossed for me!

Is This Real Life?!

I am still in complete and utter shock! But also bliss. This morning my temp dropped but not anywhere near my cover line temp. So with some encouragement from my TTCAL ladies I tested and low and behold there was a very bold positive. I was in shock and trying not to freak out too much as it was 5am and I didn’t want to wake anyone up ha. I went and laid back down but, naturally, could not fall back asleep. At 6am I had to go bathroom again and so I took another test, thinking, surly the first one was wrong. But there it was another positive! I could have died. But instead I went and laid down, eventually fell back asleep, and then woke up in a panic that it was all a dream. Nope it was not! So this is real, this is happening to me. I am due September 29^th, 2013.

Anxious, hopeful, and slightly crazy

Somehow, my temp has not dropped this cycle. I am 11 DPO and this morning I took my temp expecting a drop. But no, there it was a lovely 97.66°, which for me is high! So here I sit, trying not to get excited and waiting for the, impending, drop tomorrow. But for today I am hopeful that maybe my temp won’t drop. I am trying not to read into every little sign and crediting anything I do feel to PMS. But please, oh please, oh please do not be PMS!

So this is my lovely TTCAL brain being crazy. I swear I was never this crazy before. But now here I am trying to stay as busy as possible, just so that I don’t start peeing on things. TMI? Probably, but this is what I have been reduced to haha!

Anyways I will check back in tomorrow with a temp drop or a test result. Fingers crossed!

Happiness

Continuing with my 30Things Series here is number five: What are the 5 things that make you most happy right now?

 

I love this post because, frankly, sometimes it is so hard to think of even five things that are making me happy right at a single moment in time. But I need to stop being negative and appreciate what I have. So here it goes!

 

1.      My husband, naturally. He always knows how to make me feel better. I swear I can be on the verge of a mental breakdown and all it takes is a few words from him and I feel so much better. I can't even begin to explain how wonderful he is, you'll just have to trust me ;)

2.      My dog. He is the happiest, cutest dog ever. And I know he can tell how I feel because when I am in a good mood he is very playful but when I am in a not so great place he just lays down and snuggles me. Does it get any better than dog snuggles?

3.      The future. I have so many things to look forward to. I sometimes lose sight of what is to come because I get so caught up in the past or the burdens I am currently facing. But I know that soon I will have all of the great things that I have worked so hard for.

4.      My job. I am so thankful for my job. Not everyone has a job that they enjoy as much as I do. Plus it puts the roof over my head, the food on our table, and clothes on our back, so who could complain?

5.      The TTCAL board on The Bump. Seriously, the ladies here are amazing. I don’t know how else I would be getting through this entire journey. No one else understands the emotions and heartaches the way that they do. I am so grateful for them!